You can imagine why. However, an underlying reason was that I sang that song, at least the first verse, to Kenley every day in the shower while I was pregnant. Every single day. It just made me happy, soaping up my belly and belting it out to my little girl. Mike liked to try to sneak in with his iphone and record me in all of my off-key glory because he thought it was hilarious. So, this song reminds me of a joyful and innocent time. But now, it is as if that second verse has been added to my life now. And the song means something completely different. It is a song of what I have lost.
After pulling myself together this afternoon, I pulled out my ipad. I downloaded a pretty version of this song and I coordinated it with some photos to create a movie. I used photos from the beginning of the pregnancy all the way through to last week. Throughout the entire process of creating it, I cried. It actually felt wonderful to do so. A cleansing of sorts, I suppose. And now, I am sharing it with you. Fair Warning: You will likely also cry.