It doesn't seem fair that I get another birthday and Kenley didn't really even get one. On the same day I celebrate my life, I mourn the loss of hers. But, really, I do that every day. Every day, I am alive and she is not.
Today, in honor of my baby girl, several friends of mine, along with my amazing mom, are running a 5K in Melbourne. This 5K benefits the Brianna Marie Foundation, which was founded by a local mother who's daughter died 15 hours after birth due to fetal hydrops. This 5K was promoted on the Cherishing the Journey Facebook page, which is how I found out about it. I shared the link with my friends and they all jumped on it. They had turquoise T-shirts made - an owl in a tree with the phrase "Kenley's Krew: February 25, 2013" Mike and I got shirts too, and so now we are heading down there to cheer them on at the finish line. It really means a great deal to me that I have such a supportive group of friends - and that together we are helping fund research that may one day prevent other mothers from feeling such a devastating loss.
In her heartbreakingly short life, Kenley has managed to touch so many people. I am grateful for the time I spent with her. I am grateful for the joy she gave me and for what I am able to do because of her. Under the circumstances, I can't think of a better way to celebrate my birthday.
This one's for you, Little Ninja!